Lately, I’ve been finding myself praying for strength. Strength to get through the day. Strength to NOT scream in frustration at my four-year-old. Strength to tolerate one more day of uncertainty. I want to be strong. I need to be strong. I feel strength will give me the ability to tackle whatever obstacle comes my way.
Somedays, I grieve the strength that I used to have. It seems so long ago that functioning through everyday life was as easy as breathing. I’ve always been able to pick myself up once I’ve gone through a hard time. This time it’s different. This time, my emotions feel foreign to my heart. It’s almost like, I’m not who I thought I was and maybe I’m not. Maybe, just maybe, God placed this obstacle in my life in order to reveal the real me and my true strength.
My battle with physical and mental illness’ has taught me so much; compassion, acknowledgment of my feeling of those around me, and a strong relationship with God. Most days, I see that my struggles are apart of a more elaborate plan by my Father.
Right now, I am reading a book called One Year Guide to Praying the Promises of God by Cheri Fuller & Jennifer Kennedy Dean. It is a daily devotional that I read to help me center me. Each day reminds me of God’s promises and why I shouldn’t lose faith. I would like to share an example that was used to show how although we may see our struggles as our weaknesses, God uses them to strengthen us.
[In Exodus 4:12] God was calling Moses to a task that was bigger than he was. God wanted Moses to deliver a message, but Moses could only concentrate on his failures. He begged God not to send him because he felt like he wouldn’t have the right words.
In (Acts 7:22), Moses was described as someone who “powerful in both speech and action” before his 40-year hiatus. Afterwards, he became a man who was “not very good with words” (Exodus 4:10). It is believed that during his forty year desert training period, God stripped Moses from his self-confidence. God’s purpose was not to leave Moses insecure and weak, but instead for Moses to transfer his confidence to God. When it comes to God’s power, Moses’ weaknesses and failures became irrelevant. The only thing to measure is the power of God, and the power of God never comes up short.
God promises Moses and, by extension, you and me: “Whatever you need in the moment, I will supply.” In this instance, Moses needed the right words to deliver Gods message. But whatever we need to fulfill Gods request, God will supply. He will give us what we need when we need it.
We don’t have to worry about what to do or say because the Spirit of God, who knows the mind of God, lives in our heart. He has direct access to our minds and deposit the wisdom and guidance that we need. (See 1 Corinthians 2:10-16, James 1:5)
I hope this helped you as much as it helped me when I read it. We have to stay strong and fight because God will give us the tools that we need to survive. If you are thinking about giving up, pray for strength and guidance. Sometimes, just simply saying, “Jesus” will provide you comfort in your time of need. Stay blessed family.
You are wonderful. You are special. You are beautifully made.
“His promise gives us the courage to be on call every minute of every day, ready to respond to this command. There is no need to inventory our weaknesses when God’s strength is the determining factor. When we transfer all our confidence from ourselves to him, what is left to fear?” -Jennifer Kennedy Dean